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No more exclusionism here.
Jan. 1st, 2020 03:12 pmI posted this to Tumblr earlier, in response to one of those posts showing up in my recent activity:
Hey so I just want to say I used to be a massive exclusionist asshole about asexual people (specifically “aro/ace hetero” people) like, a couple years ago on Tumblr. I honestly have no idea what the hell any of that was about, how it got started, or why it was just that subset of aces and no other. No seriously, I don’t know how I got started on that particular bullshit. It went from not being a thing at all, to being A Huge Fucking Thing, and I have no idea why. All I know is once I was on that bullshit, I was like, addicted to it or something. Fuck if I know what was going on. It’s super fucking cringey now to look back on those posts.
I won’t lie and say I’m not still an asshole about some things, because I am. I’ve been just… so angry all my life. Everything sucks, everything hurts me emotionally, and I lash out. I’m trying to improve. One way I’m trying to improve is staying away from Tumblr as much as possible. It’s a toxic place for me, and that just makes this shitty cycle of increasing toxicity.
And part of why I was keeping it up so long, I think, was dealing with a really shitty long-term situation I’ve since gotten out of. Now I’m on my own and I’ve been mellowing out a lot since then. Of course Life still gets to me, still hurts, still causes anger that builds up and comes out in toxic ways.
But I was aiming that rage at entirely undeserved targets, with that whole exclusionism thing I was on. It was hurtful to a lot of people, for absolutely no good reason. If I could undo it all, I would.
So yeah. For whatever it’s worth, there’s my apology, and my promise to be better. Feel free to point exclusionist bigots at me as an example of someone who gave up that bullshit, if you want to. But I totally get it if you don’t want to.
Hey so I just want to say I used to be a massive exclusionist asshole about asexual people (specifically “aro/ace hetero” people) like, a couple years ago on Tumblr. I honestly have no idea what the hell any of that was about, how it got started, or why it was just that subset of aces and no other. No seriously, I don’t know how I got started on that particular bullshit. It went from not being a thing at all, to being A Huge Fucking Thing, and I have no idea why. All I know is once I was on that bullshit, I was like, addicted to it or something. Fuck if I know what was going on. It’s super fucking cringey now to look back on those posts.
I won’t lie and say I’m not still an asshole about some things, because I am. I’ve been just… so angry all my life. Everything sucks, everything hurts me emotionally, and I lash out. I’m trying to improve. One way I’m trying to improve is staying away from Tumblr as much as possible. It’s a toxic place for me, and that just makes this shitty cycle of increasing toxicity.
And part of why I was keeping it up so long, I think, was dealing with a really shitty long-term situation I’ve since gotten out of. Now I’m on my own and I’ve been mellowing out a lot since then. Of course Life still gets to me, still hurts, still causes anger that builds up and comes out in toxic ways.
But I was aiming that rage at entirely undeserved targets, with that whole exclusionism thing I was on. It was hurtful to a lot of people, for absolutely no good reason. If I could undo it all, I would.
So yeah. For whatever it’s worth, there’s my apology, and my promise to be better. Feel free to point exclusionist bigots at me as an example of someone who gave up that bullshit, if you want to. But I totally get it if you don’t want to.