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alex_antoninOn an autism community on FB, someone was discussing the tendency of autistic people to be more sensitive to rejection. This was my response:
I think the biggest reason is the fact of not knowing what we said or did to warrant being rejected. Could explain why I developed such an abrasive and divisive personality, cussing like a sailor and generally not having much of a filter. At least that way when I get rejected, I know exactly why I got rejected (because people can't handle my awesomeness) and I know the friends I have that do stick around are true blue, because if they can tolerate me when I am the way I am, it means they're vibing with me.
Well, that and the fact that I spent my formative childhood years being tortured by my demon-spawn little sister's hours-long crying jags because she's a little demonic piece of garbage. Kinda hard to turn out normal when you have to deal with bullies at school and a banshee you can't kill or banish at home.
I think the biggest reason is the fact of not knowing what we said or did to warrant being rejected. Could explain why I developed such an abrasive and divisive personality, cussing like a sailor and generally not having much of a filter. At least that way when I get rejected, I know exactly why I got rejected (because people can't handle my awesomeness) and I know the friends I have that do stick around are true blue, because if they can tolerate me when I am the way I am, it means they're vibing with me.
Well, that and the fact that I spent my formative childhood years being tortured by my demon-spawn little sister's hours-long crying jags because she's a little demonic piece of garbage. Kinda hard to turn out normal when you have to deal with bullies at school and a banshee you can't kill or banish at home.